Why do I keep thinking of him ?

Ive been in love with this guy for 5 years now . WE have alot of wonderful memories & he loved me & he wanted to be with me but we couldnt be bc of people . He knew i was his angeel & i was beautiful . he would always stare at me drive by my house & blare michael jackson remember the time we fell in love ? im so in love with him . I remember one time we were over his house and he got his hand bburnt on the stove in his house lol & he showed me to see if i cared and i held his hand and kissed it . i mean i realllllly do care about him & the thing is we dont talk anymore . we havent talked since like julllly bc his wife came between uss shea very jealous of mee bc she knows her husbadn likes me and wen i walk by his house he stilll stares at me ? its prettty sad bc im so inlove with him . like realllly . i think about him 24 7 of what couldve happened annd all of our memoires and stare at his pictures . i wish everynight at 1111 that he would come back into my life. he loved me very much and he would calll me beautifull alllll the time . & his wife woulld get pisssed & he woullld say he lovedd me so much & wen his wifee worked on saturday and friday nights he woulld want me to drive overr & spend the night ? he woullld always S T A R E at me & smillle. he woulld look dor any ;litttle excuse to touch me .but something in me tells me not to give uppp .everytime i drive by his house he always looks at me wiht a sad face nd i do to . i miss him so much . something tellls me theres more to this in lifee . like he sitlll loves me . i hopppe . i makke my profile pictures unprivate on fb so he can see them & the wuotes i ahve underneath them . i miss him so much .& everytime iw ulld tlak about guy friends eh woulld get reallly mad . how come i keep thinking of him . ?